
It all begins one summer when James Purdew is climbing the stairs of the apartment he shares with his girlfriend in Amsterdam. He falls and breaks his ankle, but more worrisome than the accident is the fact that for a moment, just before it happens, he cannot remember who he is at all. Trapped in the apartment during a heat wave, James becomes obsessed with his past - specifically with three years of his life, the years he spent at university in the city of H., about which he can remember nothing. James has kept diaries for years, but unfortunately the diaries of those years are locked inside a box, and James has lost a key.
When his relationship falls apart, James decides to return to England, to the city of H., so that he can find out the truth about his past. There, he finds a job restoring an old house that seems vaguely familiar, and when he uncovers the manuscript of an incomplete Victorian mystery, that story, too, seems more familiar than it has any right to be...
One thing is certain:
The Amnesiac is one of the most original books I've read in a very long time. It's a murder mystery that isn't quite a murder mystery; it's a psychological thriller; it's a Gothic story complete with creepy mansion; it's a story about a man's search for his identity; it's a reflection on memory, its loss, and the extent to which what we remember makes us who we are; and it's a surreal tale with a sci-fi twist. I was hooked from the very start, and I had trouble putting it down. At the same time, however, I'm not sure how
satisfying a story it is. I'll let you know why, but it will take some explaining, so please bear with me.
The Amnesiac reminded me quite a bit of authors like Haruki Murakami or Jonathan Carroll (and also of movies like Memento and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind). Those of you who are fans of these authors will know that it's best not to expect definitive answers at the end of their books. Likewise, it's probably best not to expect them from
The Amnesiac. I think I
do know exactly what happens in this book - I think I have the answers. But another reader might think exactly the same and have come up with an entirely different set of answers. So yes, the solution to the mystery is ambiguous, and it's presented obliquely. I didn't find this frustrating, but I'm not sure it worked either. I realize that the ambiguity, the fact that the story isn't neat or satisfying, is very much a part of what
The Amnesiac is trying to do. But the thing is, sometimes the story almost tried to be
too clever and self-conscious for its own good.
There was something else that rubbed me the wrong way. In some of the book's most surreal moments, there were - ah, little sneering speeches about those foolish, arrogant people who believe in things like "science" or "logic" or "reason"; those silly and arrogant skpetics, ha ha ha. Some of the characters who say these things are unreliable to say the least, so it's not necessarily true that the book is endorsing what they say. And needless to say, everyone's entitled to their worldview, but there was something about the mocking tone that really got to me. But this is a bit of a sore spot for me, so it's possible that other readers wouldn't notice it at all.
I wasn't surprised to see that Sam Taylor thanks Oliver Sacks at the end of the book, as there were parts that reminded me quite a bit of him. The thing about Sacks, thought, the reason why I love him so, is that he loves science. His books are full of respect and appreciation for it, as well as of warmth and humanity. He realizes that dehumanizing people is in no way an intrinsic characteristic of the scientific method (and why must people keep forgetting that science is a method?), and that doing what he does, which is look at each of his patients as a person, does not mean that he has to dissociate himself from science. But this is probably not the place for me to channel Ben Goldacre, so I'll shut up about it now.
Moving on to the things I loved: I loved The Amnesiac's noir, nightmareish mood, as well as the occasional dark humour. I loved all the references to literature and music - The Go-Betweens! Also, Jorge Luís Borges and Philip Larkin play an important role in the story. I also loved that it was thoughtful and philosophical while still having a very exciting plot. One of the cleverest things about The Amnesiac is the narration, and sadly I can't say too much about that without spoilers. But after a certain point you begin to notice that what we're dealing with here isn't an ordinary third person narrator, thanks to passages such as this:
You may wonder how I can possibly know all this; how I can see the quicksilver, gossamer visions that flicker inside James Purdew’s mind, how I can feel every heart-swell an nerve-twitch in his body. But that, for the moment, must remain my little secret.
These passages become more and more frequent as the story progresses, and they're quite alarming, as I'm sure they're meant to be. This little extra mystery adds a new dimension to the story, which I thought was very well done.
In the end, I suspect that The Amnesiac is a love it or hate it sort of book. It's a bit funny that I'm saying this, considering that I neither loved it nor hated it, but I hope you're forgive me: it's just one of those odd books that I'm not quite sure how I feel about. But I'm definitely glad to have read it, and I'm looking forward to reading more of Sam Taylor's work in the future.
Interesting bits:
The boxes contained his diaries. These were his most valuable possessions, not because they held any astonishing secrets, but because without them he feared he would cease to be the same person. James did not trust his memory. He relied on the diaries to do much the remembering for him. They were the ropes that moored him to himself.
But hope, I can tell you, is an exhausting emotion; perhaps, along with fear, the most exhausting of all. It is like juggling eggs: the hope is the shell, and inside is despair. A single crack and the despair might spill everywhere, stain everything.
Someone should write a true-to-life detective story, James thought bleakly; an existential mystery in which the answer is not to be found, clear and logical, at the book’s end, but only to be glimpsed, of half-grasped, at various moments during its narrative; to be sensed throughout, like a nagging tune that you cannot quite remember, but ever defined, never seen whole; to shift its shape and position and meaning with each passing day; to be sometimes forgotten completely, other times obsessed over, but never truly understood; not to be something walked towards but endlessly around.
(Which is actually a pretty good way of describing The Amnesiac.)
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